Ok its Friday, yippie effing hooray!!

Oh the joy of Friday.......BS. My boss has thrown a teleconference in last minute at the end of the day. You know my plan was to put my computer on hibernate and IM volume up and vegetate from 2:30 on. That is ruined, really I guess you do have to work during work.

I get to go to my first school dance with my kids tonight. I am so excited. Well not really, all the school functions I have attended have sucked royally. The end of one can bring a tear of joy when they are over. Don't get me wrong, it's not my kids, it's the horrific planning of the school. The other parents who bring their screaming younger kids that end up over shadowing whatever my child is doing.

I am not a pessimist, I promise. I used to be a total pessimist.
I used to smoke,was wild, broke the rules. Non Conformist. Wait, I still am a non conformist. I am so ready for it to be 5.

I have loved and dreamt of Johnny Depp for like EVER....until I watched The Tourist. What was that? Huge disappointment. I still am to upset to put words to it.

Today I get to go visit a man, full blown aids, protruding anal/rectal cancer......to talk to him about hospice. He is young, is living in a "unsafe" environment per APS. (Yea me) That could be the reason I am in a funk.
Hospice.....it is so hard to look at a person in the face you don't know well and talk about them dying. When they "Get it" and the terror in their eyes. Boils to the core of my inner being to try and fix it. Pull out my tools, rabbit out of a hat and let magic happen - poof! They are cured. Never happens. The last time I tried to walk on water I nearly drowned. However the feeling still hits me every time.

Its time to hit hit the road in Bruce (my Mini) wish me luck.