Really? Yes Really. Really?

Hello all....... Boy oh Boy.....I did what I normally do not do. Fell apart today. Because I wanted to change the living conditions of a patient who has advanced cancer and aids. Totally with it mentally, and the conditions. No word an describe.

People I live in one of the largest cities in the USA, and people live like this. Ugh I have been called a tree hugger, socialist, lefty, etc. But I have some OOC crazy radical Conservative views too.
Citizens who milk the system I think should be poked in the eyes until they get off their asses. Citizens who due to a illness that has made them disabled, lost their job, insurance and live off state assistance by damn it they deserve what we all work and pay for. (Sorry I am passionate about these people)

This guy, has no electricity. No gas. He had a campfire stove ridged to a propane tank to boil water for bathing. An extension cord plugged to the neighbor for a power strip for a mini fridge for his medication, and a lamp. REALLY. He is ok with this. I call APS, they tried to help also. He chooses to live with what "God has dealt him" He did ask me for help with meals on wheels. I did that. He needed some supplies that would normally go through paperwork process and will, but I went and got him a few things.

Here is what broke me. I wanted to hug this man and let him cry, but I was scared I would catch scabies....bedbugs....mites.... not even knowing if he had any!!! I am not scared of disease, but bugs.....

My heart ached for this guy. He will die alone in that house.

I came home, stripped and put my clothes in the wash. And cried. I am so so thankful for what I do have.
I have lived almost 40 years with wanting more....better. Life is not about more or better. Its about quality, and love. Compassion and dignity. Being comfortable in your own skin. Proud of everything you have. Grateful.

I am so grateful and humble right now. I am content with my life.
I am blessed to be a part of these people's lives. They teach me. I help them. Win Win.